A toddler?

I can't believe this time last year I was going to bed for the last time being pregnant.

I thought I had at least three more weeks before I would meet my daughter.

But Wednesday December 15, 2010 at 11:06pm I met our little girl.

It was the craziest and most amazing experience of my life.

I loved being pregnant, and surprisingly I loved labor and delivery.

It didn't go exactly as I expected but I can't wait to do it again.

Next time the goal is to go all natural.

I was only in actual labor for a little over 4 hours and only pushed for 8 minutes.

It was the most intense thing I have ever gone through.

It hurt like a beetch.

But seeing her beautiful face was the best moment of my life and definitely worth it.



I can't believe that I just put my BABY to bed for the last time.

Tomorrow I will wake up and she will be a toddler.

Where did the last year go?

As hard as it was when she was a newborn and she screamed her brains out because her belly hurt I would go back and do it all over again in a heartbeat.

When I say I miss my little baby everyone tells me to just have another one.

But it won't be the same.

It won't be Ellie. I don't want to just replace her.

It will be a new baby and I will be chasing around a toddler too.

I won't be able to have the same experiences I had because it won't be just me and the new baby.

Part of me feels like I'm grieving the fact that this stage of our life is over.

But I whole-heartedly love where we are now.

She is such a sweet little girl.

Her personality is really starting to show and she cracks me up.

She is so fun, and I love that we are able to do things together.

She will have a "conversation" with me and it is the cutest thing ever.

I love the way she scrunches up her nose when she smiles

and the way she gets so excited when daddy comes home from work.

As much as I am going to miss this stage I am so looking forward to what is to come.

I just know I'm not going to take anything for granted.

Time goes by so fast and I know it's only going to go faster in the future.

Eleanor Ruth I love you so much and can't believe they way you've turned my world upside-down.

I never knew the capacity I had to love unconditionally.

I am so excited to watch you grow and change as the days go by.

I love you.